This creature is unable to can

I'm so so so done. I can't even really explain what's so wrong about my current life. But it does feel like a burden.
Work, private life, health. There's nothing to give hope. I don't see any perspectives in any direction. I also feel too annoyed to do something about it. I come from work, I lay down and I just feel so mad for no good reason. Might not sound like a goal but i'd want to find willpower to just sit and have an honest conversation with myself. I'm too afraid to do this because it will change something for sure but what if I mess up everything even more and there'd nothing that I can do about it. The battery is off