find a way to get things under my control

it's just too much. of everything. I get completely numb from over sharing. everything seems so over stimulating that it almost feels like signing up for any volunteering campaign and drifting away to Central Africa is the best idea possible. i can't deal with my life, i have no idea, how to start over. it's just dead end. I don't know where to begin because it all seems so painful. I guess ill have to go completely offline and just on a random Sunday spend some lone time thinking about where to and how to. let's go there first