Forgive and forget

Everyone's so obsessed with psychology now. It genuinely feels like it's helping everyone but me. I'd been in long-lasting codependent relationships for 3 years of my life. I had the courage to break up with him. I thought that would make everything easier for me, because there're no more reasons to cry my eyes out. It simply feels like I don't live anymore. Like I don't belong here. I forgot my life without him. I thought that I would feel free, but I only feel the good eating from the inside.

Lord, please save me. Please help me find the way back to real me