Drop out and choose me

I guess it's actually weird to put drop out in your goals list. Usually people dream about college years and study hard to be where I am now. I know, I did.
But I grew up, I grew stronger. And now I realize that everything I worked hard for - is not my project. I don't see myself being this person and doing this thing. There's a goal because I'm way too scared of approaching other direction even mentally. Not a puppet. Have to figure out my own way. Have to finally choose me.